Some days

Some days

I think I'm bipolar.

Some days all I can think about the future.
Some days all I can think about is the past.
Days like today. I think about it all.

Today in seminary Brother Heap told us that the decisions we make in the next five years are going to determine how the rest of my life turns out. I guess I knew that already, but for some reason it hit home.I have a lot to decide. I'm kind of getting nervous sitting here thinking about it. Strangely enough of all people... Lady Gaga said, "Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams." Now. I'm sure I interpreted that completely different than she meant it. However, my future career and future husband may be hard to find. I kind of want two different things. I want to be successful and make money. I really do. I want people to recognize my name and I want to make a difference in the world. BUT I want to marry a returned missionary and have a family too. They just don't seem to a agree. Looks like Alex Halladay has a lot of fasting to do.

I also got my hair done today. It's quite blonde. . .

I decided that I've basically had all colors and styles of hair. I guess I like change more than I thought.

I graduate in 8 days. My life will never be the same again. I'm pretty sure Brittany and I are the only ones from our senior class (give or take a few) that are actually leaving Cedar City. Wish me luck.

Chow.