just stuff

just stuff

So I realize that the past six months I have sort of just given up on blogging. I was so good about it for such a long time. I used to get followers, and people were so nice, and I loved it. I guess I just needed a break. I would love to say that I focused on school instead of being attached to my computer but that would be a lie. I feel like being nineteen is an awkward age. I love it, but I don't. You know? I feel like I have been sort of apprehensive to get attached to people, because everyone just leaves me. I know that sounds dramatic, but it's true. I realize that I'm not alone in this, and that stuff like this isn't just happening to me, it happens to everyone my age. It's life and it's a big part of growing up.

I never really had a childhood because I always wanted to be older than I was, but now that I'm here I kind of regret not living it up. Now I have to worry about real stuff like money, exercise, relationships, family problems, etc.

So I'm just gonna be really honest up in here.

This summer I really struggled with depression. I was anti-social. I didn't get out of bed. I didn't want to make new friends. I was always sick and in a bad mood ALL THE TIME. I didn't really know what to do, or if I should start taking anti-depressents. As the doctor and I talked more and more about the risks, we decided I was going to change my lifestyle and see if that made any difference at all and if I got back to school and I couldn't handle life he'd put me on some Prozac or something.

I've slowly started making small adjustments. I've been working out as much as I can, eating pretty health, (trying) to go to bed early, and pretty much making it a point to find positive things about my day. Honestly, I didn't think it was going to work. I pretty much just did it to appease him and figured I would try it for a month, call him and tell him it wasn't working, and then he would prescribe me to something.

But I was wrong! Holy Moses sleep and eating healthy really do change who you are!! I have more energy during the day, I want to get to know people, and I have much more motivation to get out of bed everyday. Another great thing: the gospel is true! The more you lose yourself in trying to be like Jesus, the more you forget about yourself. It's true people.

I'm kind of a quote geek. I literally have like mental a "quote of the week". That I try and implement into my life. This week it's

Charity Never Faileth.

So there is my big blog confession. In my positive living class taught me that holding things in isn't good, and that sharing things with people helps them connect with you on a deeper level. I challenge you to share something with someone that you may have not before. Seriously, it's cool guys.

Anyway, I am just going to share some of my favorite stuff from Pinterest now, cause I like that place.

HAVE A FANTASTIC MONDAY!

PS two of my classes have discussed violins today. I think that's a sign that I need to start playing again.

PPS sorry for being so open. It's just a way of therapy for me :)